Lately there hasn't really been anything to write about. Some days I'm filled some emotion that overwhelms me so much I just want to cry. Some days are just another day. But I think the best words are the ones left unsaid. When we put our thoughts down in writing, they become action. There's just something about our words being tangible that causes an action. But the words left unsaid...those are the ones that really count. They're our real emotions and our real feelings. What we feel in the moments but sugar coat what comes out of our mouths to be nice or hide how we really feel. For me, the things I leave unsaid are really the things I need to get out. But really there's only one place I feel like I can say them and I'll be corrected if my views are wrong but it's the safest place I can go and my feelings aren't kept bottled up inside. My one place is my safe place, my strong tower, my shelter, my God. The best part is...get this...when I don't know what to say and I'm just so overwhelmed that words can't describe, my Savior will come and translate what I'm feeling and intercede to the Father for me. I just have to sit and listen. My God is my best friend, my Daddy, my protector, my love, my all, my everything. I would be completely lost without Him. Even when I stray and I feel like I'm fighting everyday on my own, He's STILL there. I just have to come back. It's so easy to stray away but it's so hard to come back sometimes. It's so easy to get so consumed in the day to day life and not spend time with my Savior and that's what really put's me in a funk. My testimony may not be like "I was addicted to crack and God saved me" but it's about all those times I'm in a big ole mess of a funk and God takes His big, strong, gentle hands and pull me out. I love how He's the only person that can make me feel...I don't know. He makes me feel so special that He would pay so much attention just to me when there are 40 billion other people in the world that are 98% stronger than I am. And He wants to deal with weak, little old me. It's just like that 2 Corinthians 12:9 and he says it specifically to me "But he said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you for my power is made perfect in weakness.'" W.O.W. I am weak so that people will be able to see HIS power in me and if someone asks me something I can honestly say "It's not me. It's alllllll God."
How amazing is the love of the Father on us. <3
I am currently a student learning more about life and Jesus' marvelous love and boundless grace.