Happy New Year, y'all!
If you're like me, you're probably sitting here wondering where in the world did 2014 go?! I have absolutely NO idea! Everyone keeps telling me that time flies even faster when you're older. I'm not so sure I'm ready for all that.
I want to start this post by thanking you all for your wonderful support throughout the years and throughout the past year, especially. The blog has had quite a few changes (for the better!) and there will be some other exciting things coming up soon! Thank you all so much for your support in reading the blog, the love letters, and #letsbebrave! Things are so much more interesting when God is in the driver's seat and I'm looking forward to seeing where God is going to take this little corner of the internet in 2015! Internet hugs to you all!!
Many people have asked me about the name of my blog and where exactly it comes from and what it means. The story of where it comes from is really really underwhelming but the meaning, to me, is so incredibly powerful.
Where the name comes from: It was a few months ago and I was on Pinterest (surprise!) and I stumbled upon a little pin that had the words "And if not, He is still good." At first I thought, "That's nice, I'll pin it" and for a few days afterward the phrase kept popping up in my mind and in my life. So I actually began to ponder what that phrase actually meant. I wish I had written it down in my journal the first time but I did eventually write it down last month.
The meaning behind the name: For me, it means that I am learning to trust God explicitly, completely, and in the most radically outrageous way. In my journal, I wrote down a few of my hopes and dreams:
I want to get married.
I want to have a family.
I want to adopt.
I want a 4.0 GPA.
I want a good job at a good school.
I want to be the best teacher EVER.
All of them, entirely selfish, of course but then I thought "What if God doesn't give me these things?" I mean, it is something that I need to seriously consider. Am I going to be mad at God if He doesn't provide a husband? How will I react if I can't have a family of my own? What if I don't get my dream job at a good school? What IF?
Then, I went back to each item:
I want to get married- but if not, He is still good.
I want to have a family- but if not, He is still good.
I want to adopt- but if not, He is still good.
I want a 4.0 GPA- but if not, He is still good.
I want a good job at a good school- but if not, He is still good.
I want to be the best teacher EVER- but if not, He is still good.
Am I willing to sacrifice all of those things for the will of God? Six years ago, I would have adamantly said "NO." Three years ago, I would have reluctantly say, "Yes." I wish I could honestly say that 100% of the time I would say, "Absolutely! Yes!" But that would be lying. I can, without a doubt, say this:
I want to serve Him all of my days- He will provide and He is good.
I want my heart to line up with His will- He is faithful and just to forgive me when I act like the crazy human I am.
I want to follow Him wherever He may lead me- He will equip me and I will never be alone.
The will of God is perfect and good. If I don't get what I want or desire in life then I know it is for the better because nothing in God's will is for my harm but for my good.
"For everything God created is good, and nothing is to be rejected if it is received with thanksgiving, because it is consecrated by the word of God and prayer."
1 Timothy 4:4-5; NIV
One of my favorite artists in the entire universe is Kari Jobe and one of my favorite songs from her new album, Majestic, is "Always Enough." (If you haven't heard the album, go buy it now! I promise, you won't regret it!) The bridge of the song says, "If I have You, I have everything but without You, I have nothing." This is the cry of my heart.
I will find my life in You. You're always enough, always enough.
I am currently a student learning more about life and Jesus' marvelous love and boundless grace.